What is a typical yogi anyway's? What does a yogi mean to you?
A lot of the times I struggle with where I fit in to this whole Yoga thing? I haven't been practicing yoga for years and years I defiantly don't study yoga enough! Honestly sometimes I don't even know how I became a yoga teacher! ! I struggle to find my grove my niche in this world full of beautiful yogi's! Not being able to touch my toes move or bend very well, I think every part of my body is "tight". I don't flow into the posture like a beautiful butterfly. It's sometimes messy and not so graceful.(most times) I'm sure people that know me were like um she is teaching what? See I have alway's wanted to become a fitness instructor, I played hockey competitively from 12-17 I had a scholarship but turned it down because I was too cool for school at 17! I would now kill for that opportunity! We lived in the country and I use to run everyday. If ever I felt unfit I would listen to my intuition and get my butt up and moving! After I had my first baby (Emma) I gained a lot of weight and felt really crappy about my life and self so I decided to start going for walks eventually made it to the gym and I haven't stopped going ever since! Even with my other 3 pregnancy's. I use to go to kickboxing pregnant with my 3rd (Isabelle) and the other two were just babies (Brennan wasn't even a year) and kick the crap out of the pads I'm taking I went almost to my due date! People laughed at me all the time! I went to the gym every day for a very long time! Then I brunt out after my 4th (Alexandra) and didn't know what the fuck I was doing!
So I started to dabble into this Yoga thing.... I tried to just do yoga and although I love it and I know that it's my happy place there is just something about working my ass off that I can't let go of! I have struggled for a long time now with being ok just doing Yoga and telling myself that's all that I need but reality is that Yoga is NOT all I need! I love to work and sweat! I makes me feel 100x's better! Apparently I have some aggression, some passion and an innate need to get my heart rate up!
So why you ask did I not follow my passion for fitness? Why did I not save a lot of money and get my group instructor's certificate and just do what I have alway's loved to do and has been in my life for a very long time? Good question! All this talk from me about Authenticity and such has made me really think lately! Answer is that if i hadn't chosen the path that I have taken I wouldn't be where I am today! I wouldn't have been asking myself these question's I wouldn't have been able to handle the thing's that have came up in my life lately, I would have been a puddle on the floor, a true mess! I'm not saying that people who become fitness instructor's would be a mess I'm just saying for me personally I would of. I seem to have this tunnel vision and not think outside of what I am in... If that makes any sense.
I find that with Yoga I can truly be in the present moment. I know when I am starting to feel crappy about myself that it's time to step up my dam Yoga game! When I get on my mat it may not be beautiful and graceful to watch on the outside but on the inside I'm like HELL YEAH I'M A ROCK STAR and I love it! It's so funny that I have struggled with just doing one or the other when they are a PERFECT combination to each other! The last training that I completed in Edmonton for Pre-hab , Post-hab with Jules Michelle was exactly what I needed to show me to add the dam work into my class's! YES!! That's my thing! Not flowing graceful (even though I will try) It's putting isometric and eccentric movement's into my sequencing! Target those smaller muscles that don't alway's get the attention that they need! I have not perfected and don't know where the next training will come from but this is my niche! This is my passion! I may not be your typical Yogi but I AM A YOGI! Not just a Yogi but a Authentic Yogi!